BLAME ME NOT; THE DOG ATE THE WORK

Life is full of ironies

And paradoxes

And contradictions

But you can never be wrong

You always have

Justifications and excuses

Especially if

You’re an Indian citizen

And believe me

I’m not alone

In being severe upon my nation

And cynical when I say

That perhaps we are

Born this way

Didn’t you know?

The Great Indian Government

Is a pro

At this blame game

Why, the other day

Mamata Didi did say

“When men and women

More freely interact

Increase in rape

Is an inescapable fact”

And for those unaware

She is the democratically-elected CM

Of an Indian state

That claims zero-tolerance for rape

No wonder regarding crimes against women

It features as the hottest destination

But wait!

There has to be an opposition

That must say something to dilute

The incumbent party’s explanation

Enter the conservative right wingers

And enlightened Acharyajees

“Oh no, Mamata didi,

It is not that the two genders

Never mingled earlier

It is the influence

Of the Haram Western culture!”

And that apparently says it all

After all,

Wherever else shall the blame fall?

Heaven and Earth,

The shades of  the Desi culture

Have never thus been polluted before!

Oh do ask these enlightened ascetic souls –

From where did the sculpted erotica,

Of Khajuraho and Elephanta

Emerge in the bygone era’s

Temple Architecture?!

Hah, without a doubt

The infallibly virtuous Indian culture

Which has always upheld the façade

Of such ‘family values and honor’

That crimes hid behind the veils

Of silently suffering females

Need I say more?

Oh yes, the NCR,

Whose police says with nonchalance,

“‘Immodest’ wardrobe and inebriation

Bar-tending and late-night shifts

Are all equivalent to prostitution”

You see, this is the insignia

Of an efficient administration

That has redefined feminism

To such an extent and context

That despite being under-reported

And despite victims oft being indicted

The NCR stands in unabashed glory

Of being the highest scorer

In the Indian Rape Story

– Akanksha Gupta

DYING TO BE ME

I’m going to a place

You’ve never been

You never can be

It’s only for me

I’m not being presumptuous

And not at all selfish

Its a place where I wake up

Without the morning rush

And I ain’t on a vacation

Nor am I high on cocaine

But the occasion

Is such

That its hard to suppress

The sun-kissed smile

That adorns unbidden

Every shadow, every crevice

And I ain’t at the beach

But it sure feels like one

Where the sun and the ocean

Meet at the horizon

And are overlooked by –

By the mountains

That are ribboned with –

With a river full of fish

And that river flows through me

And I – I flow through it

There is no real difference

That feeling of oneness

When I fall into the ocean

And look up to see

A rainbow greets me

And I feel a sense of

Lucidity, and serenity

That as a consequence

I forget the reality

That awaits me

When I open my eyes

And close them again

A few more moments

Of slumber

To before tranquil was torn

Asunder

To moments of exclusivity

Back to the freedom of being

In a dream

Without anybody

Where I can be me

A nobody and everybody

– Akanksha Gupta

Why I Click

After much thought

I can say

That ‘Every Day’

Makes memories

Unique, profound

And though I may

Freeze time and

Capture the essence

Of each emotion

And every action

Positive or negative

I can never quite ensnare

The worth of every moment

The beauty of every instance

In the timeless memory

Because what makes it special then

May not exist now

Yet a memento, a souvenir

Every day in future

Reminds me why I live

And keep going

Day in and day out

– Akanksha Gupta

Chennai – An Enigma

Chennai Through The Eyes Of a Vacationing Delhiite

Vennakam yepaddi irukka?
Hustle bustle
Blow a whistle
The crowd is noisily pouring
Onto the streets
That carry
A million heartbeats
The sun glaring
Digging holes
Into my bruised eyes
The vendors are shouting
Into my ears
Unimaginably loud
The rickshaw is pulling
Me across
The traffic beleaguered
Streets
With the cars
Honking
Like there is no tomorrow
The beggars at red-light
Cling on to me
With the air
Of inexplicable sorrow
As if the very city
Has raped
Their souls
Of any happiness
Here, I digress
But I must confess
The city
Has an air of mystery
Of ambiguity
That pulls me in
Not because
Of its warm winter weather
Its varied culture
Or homey nature
But because you can
Lose yourself
It’s the anonymity
That is alluring
Especially
In a metro
Where a fast-paced life
Leaves no time
To stand and stare
But a Wordsworth-like world
Where you can
– A stranger –
Stand and observe
How life simply surrounds you
And runs around you
And that gives a sense
Of satisfaction and fulfillment
Better than escape reality
But that maybe
Because I can be me
With no responsibility
And that’s when I say
Nalla Irukken

– Akanksha Gupta

Life Is Tough

When you fall
When you rise
I can see it
In your eyes
Through the ups
Through the downs
In your smiles
And your frowns
Your eyes can’t hide
An anguish, a pain,
A soul so old
And tear-stained
That I’m forced
To look into them
And yet I –
I can’t divine
What goes on
Behind
Closed doors
Of your life
Yet I say
That you may
Believe that
Life is tough
Life is rough
And you can’t
Take in any more
It is enough
The truth is if life
Was all
Sunshine and happiness
You’d never know
Joy from sadness
You’d never treasure
The moments
Of sheer pleasure
For that’s when you know
That though
Life is tough
Life is rough
The inherent beauty of life
Can never be
Ever enough

~ Akanksha Gupta

FEAR IN THE RAW FORM

ALONE AND AFRAID OF THE UNKNOWN

The heart beats

On a metallic chest

With zest unmatched

But by Sivamani

They say such comparisons

At the inopportune time

Tsk tsk bad humour

But I say, as there is

Despite the need

No publicity

The joke isn’t lost

In the sea of

Controversies

Yet you find

No solace

T’is a moment of

External tranquility

And of heightened sensitivity

Whence the accelerated rhythm

That thus accompanies

Gives an unexpected

Boost of adrenaline

And as morbid as

The thought maybe

It’s the music of terror

That seems to literally

Wrap a venomous coil

Of dread and horror

Around the body

While the sound

Of the heart’s beat

Grows nearer

So much so that

You feel your heart

Stubbornly lodged

In your throat

And all the self help guides

That had aeons ago told

To keep your cool

Become a faint memory

Of a wise old fool

And gradually

The sound of fear

Drowns out common sense

And drives out

Any notions of

Ethics or morality

It is the trepidation

This unholy anticipation

Of an unpredictable

Reality

Resides within

a fear filled mentality

That sits like a cloud

In the mind

And rusts and rots

The grey clogs

That in the face of all

Eventualities

Are unable to formulate

An articulate response

Other than freezing up

Or shooting away

Faster than a cannon

For this sensation

Of paramount trepidation

Refuses to subside

And rears its ugly head

At every moment

Like a three headed dragon

–           Akanksha Gupta

Writing For Writing’s Sake

When I write
The universe
Recedes
Into the shell
Of anonymity
An essence of me
Uninfluenced
And unhindered
As though
For eternity
Pours through my heart
And my mind
Like molten lava
Impatient
Impassioned
And eager
To burst through
A long dormant volcano
And I write
Like there’s
No tomorrow
For writing is
As timeless as
Photography
And as expressive as
A dance
And as soothing as
Music
Yet writing
Is very different
For every writer
That pens down
His soul’s desire
If you perchance
Stumble upon
Such a treasure
Such a  shrine
In life
Know that its beauty
Is indeed
One of its kind

– Akanksha Gupta

PERFECTION: Attempt 1

Everything always is

Perfect in absentia

For no one can fault it

But in full view

Of every spectator

The inner artist

Transforms into a critic

And the plebeian admirer

Into a judgmental fascist

And the erstwhile flawlessness

Suddenly seems blasphemous

So then

Where is perfection

In anything and everything

You ask all the –ists

Say the pessimists

It doesn’t exist

Say the optimists

One day I’ll find it

Say the opportunists

Why should I want it?

Say the scientists

It is too ideal a state

Say the socialists

It’s a long road ahead

Say the realists

Waste no time

Striving for it

Yet everyone always is

In pursuit of perfection

And perfection

It is elusive…

Can it bring happiness?

No-one knows

What about poets

Like me? Like you?

Perfection we feel

Does exist

In the eyes

Of the beholder

Perfection persists

In every single act

And every single object

Where there is a flavor

Of effort and endeavor

To do the best

To be the best

And have the best

Then it’s an instance

Of pure perfection

For you can see

Within its depth

And know

Within your heart

Perfection indeed

Does exist

But the inner critic

Of all the -ists

Fail to ever discover it

We you and I

Are not –ists

Fortunately

Just commoners

May be that’s why

Objectively and subjectively

And also in the mirror

You and I can see

Perfection wherever

And whenever

We want it to be

– Akanksha Gupta

THE ERA OF NARCISSISTS

Every day I look at you

Are you ‘you’ or ‘me’?

The more I look the more I feel

Like drowning into thee

 –

The ocean is too full of salt

The pond full of algae

The river neither is enough

To contain the vanity

 –

“O Mirror, Mirror where are you”

T’is a charming irony

Those that wish to find you not

Are the ones blessed by thee

 –

In their eyes I see myself

Reflected differently

Am I the way they look, or

The way I look, at me?

 –

The answer is too simple

Yet they cannot see

Permanently are they blinded

Thus narcissistic-ally?

 –

“O Mirror, Mirror on the wall

Does beauty speak of me?”

First the Queen, then Narcissus

A fairytale reality

– Akanksha Gupta

TO BE OR NOT TO BE

It’s a fleeting moment

When reality ceases to exist

When you can imagine

On this plane; a parallel universe

Or even absolute silence

A moment of peace indeed

Where every idiotic syllable uttered

Doesn’t go down in personal history

Of insanely stupid moments

It’s an ephemeral fulfilment

Of the innermost desires

A time to escape; a place to escape

No obstacle, no predicament, no quagmire

A moment of absolute clarity

Of great insight yet permissible peculiarity

Of simplification of complexities

Of freedom from social niceties

And a moment sans entanglements

No emotional baggage or responsibility

No delusions of grandeur

But an ambience of elegance

A moment of well-deserved

Self-indulgence

When there is no forced pretence or play,

Neither is it a judgement day

Where you can be you and I can be me

And in this warped reality

That would seem to be

 For just a fleeting moment

A means of escape

A world of you, by you, for you;

Solely built

To suit your tastes

After all everybody needs

A self-styled illusory reality

Where you have the right

At any-time in life

To be or not to be

– Akanksha Gupta

A MOMENT OF CONTEMPLATION

In this mad mad world

When I stand on the precipice

I let down my hair

Wind swept it literally

And I ain’t no Shakespeare

Yet bemused I can be

By the high and the low

The dramas of a society

I ain’t no Sherlock Holmes

But can observe clearly

Past the facade of warmth

The stark reality

And I’m no solitary loon

But when its just you and me

Alone in our solitude

They may say I’m-a crazy

But after a dose of rush

That defines a modern city

I need a moment to myself

In your undemanding company

– Akanksha Gupta

AN ODE TO MUSIC

There in the forests deep, dark and sultry

Each and every wispy and sonorous sound

Echoes unbidden the haunting melodies

Of the dead and undead creatures abound

 –

As such; lofty sprites and sky larks prance

Their lithe forms spin gracefully in the air

In a harmonious glorious symphony

Effortlessly, and simply without a care

 –

It is fuel for the soul; It is

The unadulterated passion in their eyes

It is, the palpable emotion in the air

It is, the unmistakable fervor in their voice

 

That adds to the mystery of legs tapping,

Of adrenaline pumping and hearts thumping ­

To the rhythm of a limitless range that

Can be stretched without screeching or limping

 

They are crafty strings plucked up with courage

The dainty keys pressed into a tune filled air

The addictive pipes that sway with the wind

The masks that burn with a whipping severe

 –

But music oh what music t’was then

It saw, came and conquered my all

Imprinted the beats, the tune, the pitch

It made me feel one with the world

-Akanksha Gupta

Nǐ Hǎo Ma?

Plush red sofa chairs

As comfy as the midnight sun

I freely sit

Its a cold cold world

And in the night

My solitude

I find, a semblance of reality

That wakes me up

Leaves me feeling cold

And outside the window

All I see

What little is left of humanity

Up in embers of smoke

And yet I see through them

The twinkling stars and the shining moon

Beckoning me to a world

Full of flighty delights

And unkempt avarice

My heart stops at once

And melodramatically thumps

Swirling with platitudes

Of suppressed emotions

But I-

I close my eyes

Swipe the touchscreen

Plastering a humble smile

Of utter gratitude

That if I didn’t know me

More than I know you

I think I could convince

My very conscience

And in all honesty can I say

At the end

Of this very painful everyday

“Dear me, I rue,

In this big bad world

How long would I stay

Honest with you too?”

–  Akanksha Gupta

You’ve Got a Hold on my Heart

Facebook replies:

“Obviously…

 

I’m a womanizer dearie

 

Built with natural charm

 

When you try to be apart

 

I send you a notification alarm

 

 

We have a symbiotic relationship

 

You use me and I use you

 

I have apps and facilities

 

You force out time to view

 

 

I’m like a drug wherever you go

 

Even a rehabilitation centre

 

You can never cure of me

 

We are a joint venture

 

 

Even if I’m bad for you

 

You’re always good for me

 

I’m an accomplished womanizer

 

Dearie, I’ll never set you free”

 – Akanksha Gupta

rachel8194's avatarWord-painting

You’ve got a hold on my heart.
No matter how hard I try,
I just can’t seem to let you go.
When we were apart, I was lost.
I didn’t know what to do with myself.
There was a hole where you had been.
But then that changed.
Over time, I stopped missing you.
I became my own woman;
My life was my own, I was free.
And yet I took you back.
You charmed me with your ways.
And now we’re as close as ever.
Despite the fact that I know you’re no good for me,
I can’t help but love you.
Oh, Facebook, why do you do this to me?

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